Live, laugh, love.

I did it, i told him that i wanted to be with him forever. Too soon you say? Well its how i felt so i fucking went and said it alright. Then we said we were going to live in a little house by the sea with 2 dogs (a German Shepard called Toby and a Bloodhound called Phantom) and i also said i wanted a kitten, which i WILL get :)

It all started with the relationship wrecking phrase "nothing lasts forever though does it". Foolishly said by me. Not that i meant it in any sort of relevance to our relationship, but thats how he took it. But seriously, what sort of an example do i have to lead by? My mum was seeing the husband of her "best friend" behind her back for a year. I now call him step dad. And my father, knocking off his ex girlfriend whilst i was just a foetus. Cheers guys, you certainly paved the way for a happy childhood for me didn't you?

Optomism. Yes, i would have liked to have been optomistic about the whole situation, but i'm not getting my hopes up again. I hope to god things work out, and that this thing we've got never goes away, but i'm not being the girl with all these wonderfull idea's that turn to shit. I've got my head in the clouds, but my feet are also quite firmly on the ground.



I guess i just wanted to hear him say it. I wanted him to say the words "i want us to be together forever". And he did. And it made me love him even more :)

And then i said it back <3

Work-a-holic

Jesus, what a busy few weeks is about all i can say tbh. But to be fair, apart from seemingly working 24 hours a day 7 days a week, things are pretty good. I have accepted my place at Blackpool university and am currently in the midst of applying for student finance (absolute ball ache, yes). Sort of found a house to live in, but need to wait for student finance i suppose.

Get paid on Friday, absolutely cannot waiiiiit. Currently only 23 sleeps untill holiday, so i'm going to get my money changed into Euro's verrrry soon :) Which will be very exciting, as it will feel like i'm REALLY going on HOLIIIIDDDDAAAYYYY. Waaaa. Need to buy Lukeys birthday present out of my wages too, seeing as his 22nd is fast approaching.

And before you ask, things are very well thanks. I am officially allowed to sleep over at his house in the jungle :) Which is pretty much amazing tbh, as we get to have cuddles, DVD's and just general relaxingness. I'm hopefully sleeping over tomorrow night, which will be lovely, i need something to look forward to after 2 whole weeks of work every single day. Boooo. But like i said, holiday soon, so i really need the dollar bills ;) Ha.

Well, its bedtime now. As i have to be up for 6am for work! Blrrggghhh. Not a fan of that at all. But i get to see Lukey tomorrow, so basically going to struggle through the day :) Yeaaahhh!

Ciao. x